My family and I are thrilled to be welcomed by the good folk at Hadley. The spirit has been very good at this new beginning, and I am confident it will blossom this spring as we all slowly emerge from our covid restrictions. What an exciting time to be the church!
This was the longest sermon I ever preached. I got a little over-inspired! But it’s a good message that begins to connect me to you and you to me. I thought some want to read the text.
3/21/22 Call Sunday: “A Permanent Give-Away”
Texts: Jeremiah 31:31-34 ; John 12:20-26, 31-36
This is a Call Sunday, an exciting and anxious moment for all of us—kind of like a first date. And worse, it’s an internet date. I want to preach like I normally do, so you can get a feel of what it’s like to live with me, before you vote on whether to do so. But I also want to talk about how I do things and why today. That means it’s going to take a little longer than normal.
So I’m preaching on the lectionary texts, like I usually do, for this fifth Sunday in Lent. I’m a biblical preacher, but I’m no slave to the Bible. I am not always happy about what some of our biblical texts say. To me the Bible is a divine book only in and through its humanity. Sometimes that humanity obscures more than it reveals. But I always listen carefully to it and do my best to let the Bible speak truth to me. We may think we’ve heard it all, but the Bible is full of surprises for all of us.
And what I’m looking for in the Bible, and in its main character, Jesus the Christ, who shows us God in his humanity, is precisely not just average, ordinary humanity, like we all know only too well. I’m not looking for common-sense truths that we get from life in general, although it’s fine if those truths are in there too. I’m not looking for a confirmation of conventional morality, or of the truisms of pop psychology or of child rearing, or of political messaging of one stripe or another. No, from the Bible I’m looking above all for a truth about life and God that I can’t get anywhere else. That kind of truth doesn’t come easy, although some Christians pretend it does—as if the Bible is an inerrant faucet of truth: not really human, just a dispenser of the pure Word of God—better than Jesus, apparently.
By the way, you might notice I skipped a few verses from John, and it would take a lot of time to say why. But it has to do with the very human process by which John was composed as well the human needs of this moment. (I don’t usually skip verses, just for the record.)
So: I’m looking for the truths in our readings from Jeremiah and John today that may not come easy, but that we won’t get anywhere else. And why is it important that these truths can’t be gotten “from anywhere else?” Not because we Christians alone have the truth. I don’t believe that. Rather, it’s because if there isn’t something uniquely true in our faith, why are we here? Why do we talk so much about this book? And why should our children keep coming to hear about it, when they might not be crazy about the music and most of their friends don’t come to church? If we’re just teaching ourselves and our children the commonsense truths that they already hear in school and sports and Disney movies, why bother? You know, movies, video games and Ted talks can animate stories much better than I can.
Well, I’ll tell you what our children won’t hear anywhere else, and neither will we adults: “Those who love their life lose it, and those who hate their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.” Now, I can tell you right now that what’s true in that verse does not come easily. I don’t entirely like the way it sounds, or the way I hear other Christians talking about that verse. Unlike many Christians, I don’t think Jesus is just talking about getting to heaven. I think he’s talking about how to live in this world. But I’m getting ahead of myself. Before I even get to what this verse could mean, I just want to lift it up for now, because this verse is the kind of thing I’m drawn to, the kind of truth I won’t get anywhere else; and that’s the kind of biblical preacher I am.
The call to serve as minister here became more real when Shari and Tom gave my family a tour of the building a few weeks ago. Rick Ward provided some commentary on the worship space and Brian gave us a marvelous tour of the clock mechanism. (I could say Silas was especially excited, which is true, but then again so was I.)
There we were, inside this tall spire, perched on some narrow, rather rickety steps, inspecting the gears and shafts extending the tiny motions of that escapement (really interesting word) to the four clock dials, which in perfect unity then tell the whole world in all directions, north south east and west, what time it is. (We’ll see that Jesus is very interested in telling what time it is.)
This was the same spire that I had driven by a hundred times, like millions of people over hundreds of years, with passing admiration for its grandeur, sometimes with a light frown twisting my lips when the time was a few minutes off. Brian made me appreciate the frequent adjustments required in this clock; no more frowning from me! (We’re doing better than Grace Episcopal.) Now that I could see for myself, up close and personal, concealed within the first-growth timber shoulders of this spire, the beauty and intricacy of that ticking, beating heart, mounted on ribs of cast iron—seeing it with my family brought home to me the great responsibility of all this: the history, the building, the generations of people it has housed. It was encouraging to me that Shari, Tom, and Brian wore that responsibility with evident joy and gratitude. But no one bears responsibility for it all—not only the working of the mechanism of the church, which is pleasingly concrete and seems timeless, but also the invisible spirit signified in it all, which is disturbingly ethereal—no one bears responsibility for all this like the pastor…and the responsibility to broadcast a spiritual message about just what time it is to the world passing by—truly, this responsibility is on all of us, but it is finally on the pastor to bring a message to the north, south, east, and west (and now, to the boundless internet) that, as we heard from the gospel for this day, “The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified…. Now is the judgment of this world; now the ruler of this world will be driven out.”
The responsibility for what has come before is heavy. The building only embodies that past in part. The collection of chalices brought home to me the story of this church back to the beginning. 1659. I don’t know anything about my ancestry going back anywhere near that far. The pastor here assumes an office that is older than the office of the President of the United States. This is an enormous responsibility we are considering together this morning. Yes, you too. Can you imagine the ancestors of this church listening in and watching us all? If they are alive in God, then they can see you at home too. You can’t hide.
For me until recently, and for all those passers-by on route 9 this morning doing their big-box shopping, all of this is quaint. Something kind of outdated and no longer relevant, they imagine, but pretty enough to be worth keeping around a little longer. That tour helped me see how much more there is to it. And I could tell that Shari, Tom, Rick, and the search committee see how much more there is to it than quaint. But it’s easy to fall into the perspective of the passer-by on route 9. How do we keep ourselves focused on that “much more than quaint?” Both the history, as well as the potential God calls us to. The past, and the future of this church; And telling the time now. And how on earth do we convey all that to the people in their cars who’ve never stepped inside and gotten to know the congregational beating heart of this church? Is there a way to make people driving by see Jesus lifted up on that spire? And if so, will he really “draw all people to himself,” as he promised he would?
Those are some of the questions that I look forward to pondering with you all (perhaps). But today, it’s you who have to tell what time it is. You have an important congregational meeting. Today the weight of that spire, and that 300-pound pendulum ticking away time and history, and the ethereal presence of God that all of this was designed to invite and invoke, is on your shoulders. You have to decide whether to heave it on me to share. Our congregationalist ancestors who build this heavy building made sure you would have to bear the responsibility for it along with the pastor. (They never imagined you’d be doing it on Zoom.)
You know, I think this great blessing that we easily take for granted—our congregational governance—is maybe what Jeremiah is prophesying about in our first reading. “The days are surely coming, says the Lord, when I will make a new covenant with the house of Israel.” Now, Jeremiah was also telling what time it is, or actually, what time it will be. In this new covenant, God says “I will put my law within them, and I will write it on their hearts and I will be their God, and they shall be my people.” Now, what exactly would change if the law were written on our hearts? Jeremiah could have gone on to say: they will all know just what to do in every situation. Wouldn’t that be nice. But he doesn’t. He says: “No longer shall they teach one another, or say to each other, ‘Know the Lord,’ for they shall all know me, from the least of them to the greatest.” Jeremiah is anticipating what is essentially a congregational covenant—at least, what we ideally are. No more kings and priests and prophets who alone can exercise authority. No more popes or bishops who assign you a pastor. No more priest whose word is final. No more top-down authority; no more teachers even! (I’m going to preach myself out of a job if I’m not careful.) With God on his breath, Jeremiah dares to look toward a future where there is no more compulsion by authority, where all have an equal voice. And all it takes to make it work perfectly, to get all of the gears of community meshing flawlessly, is that each of us has Torah or God’s instruction or the law written on our hearts. All of us must know God from within.
Well, whenever the prophets dreamt of the future, and when Jesus came along and said, “Now it’s here,” we can receive it in one of two ways: the future they describe is what we have already become, thanks to Christ—the prophetic future, in other words, is our past, for the words of the prophets have come to pass in Jesus; or, the prophetic dream of the future shows us how far we have yet to go, and Jesus just takes away any excuse—”Oh, that’s for some time in the future.” With this being Lent, I feel like I should favor the latter perspective: how far I have yet to go. Is God’s Torah written on my heart? Do I know God from within? I confess I do not, or only in part. Is our heart beating with God’s, so that we know how to tell what time it is? Or is our internal clock always running behind what God is doing now.
More important questions. But the clock is ticking. Call Sundays are just so strange! It’s almost like having to decide whether to get married at the end of a first date. Even after I’ve done my thing here this morning, you won’t know exactly what you are voting for; neither will I. Is she going to give me what I need for the rest of my life? (Or at least, for five years.) Are you going to get out of me what you want? Do we just throw caution to the wind and jump into it together, and hope for the best?
Well, there is always some risk, and some blind trust. Fortunately, we have a really good match maker: the Search Committee! I bet you didn’t think of yourselves that way. But before we go too far with it, the whole marriage metaphor is not really right to begin with (and it makes me uncomfortable, to tell the truth). Jeremiah mentions—did you catch it?—“I was their husband, says the Lord.” Israel is God’s bride, not Jeremiah’s; and so the church also came to call itself the bride of Christ. We—you and I—are church together already, sharing one baptism and one table of fellowship, like a family. And Jesus, sometimes called a bridegroom in Scripture, is in any event already the head of our family. We are not just “two ships passing in the night;” we do not walk in the dark, so long as the light is with us. Indeed, I think our passage from John’s gospel is getting something critical to this decision we make today. It’s still a weighty and difficult decision to make. But seeing it in the light of Christ, without removing the burden of it, still lightens the load for all of us. And here’s the key: Because if we are servants and disciples of Christ, we die to ourselves: “Unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains just a single grain; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.” And while that sounds scary and painful and costly, it actually makes bearing this enormous weight of time and architecture and the fear of the future much easier.
In this passage of John’s gospel, right after the triumphal entry into Jerusalem (which we actually celebrate next Sunday), some Greeks show up with a keen interest in Jesus. They are in Jerusalem for Passover, which means they could be converts to Judaism or just foreigners who are interested in Judaism. When Jesus hears about their interest, it is a signal to him about what time it is. “The hour has come for the Son of Man (that’s Jesus) to be glorified.” These Greeks are the first taste of what he predicts will be possible when Jesus is lifted up—which in John’s gospel means both crucified and resurrected, namely this: “When I am lifted up from the earth, I will draw all people to myself.”
But what Jesus goes on to talk about is not how the whole world will call on his name, or how he will forgive everyone’s sin. He doesn’t talk about himself at all, really. He talks about his disciples, for they will remain when Jesus is lifted up. By dying, Jesus will no longer be just a single grain of wheat; he will be planted in the earth and bear much fruit—that’s us. In other words, Jesus will establish by his death a new community with a unique way of life, and this way of life (in his name) will draw people from every nation and background. What is that unique way of life? It is the way of those who “hate their life in the world.”
Now, here I get uncomfortable, and maybe you do too. Are we supposed to hate our life in this world? That’s not what our UCC “be the church” poster says: the last motto is “Enjoy this life.” That is wisely said against thousands of years of Christians preaching that this world is worth nothing, that we should only care about the next world. So if you are poor or enslaved, don’t bother protesting or demanding justice; just pin your hopes on the afterlife. That’s wrong. Surely Jesus’ words have been misused, for he himself took actions to free people now, just as God freed the Israelites and protected the widow and orphan. And when you read John carefully, you see that the phrase “eternal life” does not refer only to a life beyond this one, but to a new way to live right now.
So what does it mean to “hate your life in the world?” The word translated “life” is psychē, like the English word psyche. It’s your life force, your soul, or we could call it our “self,” our identity. Jesus makes a contrast: “Those who love their life [their self] lose it.” I think he’s just stating a simple fact here: if the only thing you attend to is your-self, your own interests, your own enjoyment—to the extent that you are self-centered—know that you will lose that, it will end in nothing. He doesn’t say here you’ll burn in eternal torment. You just die, and that self that you spent your whole life attending to amounts to nothing.
Secondly, when Jesus contrasts that with “those who hate their life in this world,” he is using “the world” symbolically, as in “the way of the world;” and he thinks that the way of this world is to encourage us to be exactly self-interested and self-centered. Now, there is of course much good, natural love in this world. Not just people but most animals love their young. Many people realize that the way to really enjoy this life is to enjoy it with others, and even for others. We usually live this way at least toward our family and friends. But we should also see the world through Jesus’ eyes: he was opposed and eventually murdered by people who saw him as a threat to their self-interests, their power. And these people claimed to be guardians of either God’s revelation, or the common good.
It is this self-centered, even to the point of murder, “life in the world” that Jesus tells us to hate: “Those who hate their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.” Jesus is the one who shows us how to hate this whole system of life corrupted by self-centeredness. The positive side of hating that system looks precisely like his great commandment: love one another. Live by giving, not by hoarding. Make others’ joy your joy, rather than resenting their joy. Help others secure the basic goods of survival, rather than pursuing endless luxuries for yourself. Help them become their best self, rather than gloating in feeling superior to them. That much has already become, to some extent, common sense. Many people, save the crassest materialists and ego-centrists, grasp something of this wisdom. Glory to God.
But Jesus realizes with a tragic sensibility just how deeply engrained self-interest is, the “love of this self or life,” is in our world—and in many ways it is worse today than in his time. He will talk about the positive alternative of loving one another, but he realistically knew that he must confront the deep, systematic (as we say these days) self-interest of the world, which cannot accept the love of God. The negative side of this equation is the judgment of God, as Jesus says: “Now is the judgment of this world; now the ruler of this world will be driven out.”
We try to avoid this word, judgment. And we can by focusing on our own lives. We as individuals can find greater joy by living for others, rather than just our own self-interests. But as individuals we can hardly touch the world itself and the ruler of this world—the active, wayward power of self-interest in this world. To begin to drive out that ruler, you need a counter-kingdom. You need a people living by different rules. A people who doesn’t live just to protect their own prerogatives and privileges. A people who doesn’t maintain the status quo just because that’s what suits them.
Notice that Jesus does not say, I myself will defeat Satan and the powers that be. That would involve violence and war. (Which sometimes the Bible does imagine—a great, final Armageddon.) Jesus has no desire to capture this world’s seat of power for himself. He has no desire to rule the kingdoms of this world, as Satan tempted him with in the wilderness. He knows that he must instead give up his life and self—and that this self-giving shape of life is what will “draw all people to myself.” This self-giving shape of life, perfected by giving up his life for all, belongs to Jesus alone. We individually do not have to give up our life, literally. I want to enjoy this life as long as possible. But we can each give up our life freely, as we are called to do; this is the very spirit of our church community. Where Jesus goes—living solely for God and not for self—is where his servants, his disciples will go also. He doesn’t say this to everyone; he tells Phillip and Andrew about dying to this life, not the crowds. We likewise can live for the Father’s honor and glory alone—if not fully and perfectly like Jesus or a disciple, then we can live for God as a community, and individually as we are called.
And isn’t it this new shape of life, revealed perfectly by Jesus and at least partially among us, that draws people to this church? Is that what drew you here? To be among people who live for God and others, no longer just for themselves, as the world constantly tells us to do? It is a simple and beautiful way to see what Jesus is all about. And still 2000 years later, it is a shape of life so badly needed, so radically different from much of what passes as life. Even now, this shape of living for God and others is a judgment upon the world, and it is the only way to drive out the ruler of this world without installing just another substitute playing by the same rules.
There are other things that can draw people here. There’s the pleasure of community and friendship, the beauty of music and of this space, the sense of heritage and history, the good food—and other good things here I look forward to hearing about. There is the quaintness. I no more want to give up on these real goods of creation than I want to give up enjoying my life. But I believe we as a church have to make sure that Jesus, lifted up from the earth, glorified by the Father as the bearer of this new life for others that if you are his disciple he says you must follow, that this Jesus is somewhere felt in our friendship, sounded out in our music, highlighted in our heritage and history, tasted in our good food and in how we share it; that this Jesus is clearly heard in the ringing of our bell, in the way we tell what time it is, and is even lifted up on our spire. In-spiring, isn’t it? And so we come back to this wonderful building and history, and the question: how does our reading from John helps us think about our responsibility to it?
The crowd answered Jesus, “We have heard from the law that the Messiah (or the Christ) remains forever. How can you that that the Son of Man must be lifted up?” The crowd believes in a Messiah, a savior, who remains present. Who relieves them of the burden of living on their own in the now. A Lord who will rule over them permanently, just like the kings of the world do. They want a leader who remains forever. Our recent, stressful presidential election confirms that many of us are still very concerned about who is in power over us. If we no longer seek a king or queen or absolute authority, we are still drawn to things that hold the promise of stability, of remaining. Things like buildings. Things that suggest the promise that we do not have to lose our life in this world, that God will just make permanent what we have in this life. That’s why we are drawn to things that are grand, and fabulous, and impressive. We are not drawn to the small and ephemeral grain of wheat.
What we have and are in this world is fine and good, but it’s not what Jesus died for, and its not how he draws people to himself. Why is this pastorate still here after 362 years? Not because people spent their time celebrating the pastor, or because the pastor sold themselves to the congregation. It’s because the pastors in this pulpit did not love their life, but hated the self-interest that threatens to invade even church politics, and sought instead to be lifted up with Christ. Why is this building still here? Not because it is quaint; remember this building was once new. Not because the people who gave so much of themselves to build it and care for it thought to themselves: “How can we make a building that people will pay to see?” (Yes, I’ve seen the chart in the back of how much each pew went for in the old days. Never mind that. I’m not saying we were perfect.) But rather, they asked: “How can we create a space where we can share in Christ’s self-giving life together, that will lift people above calculating what’s in this for me?
We must make an intense decision today, you and I. Moments of decision tend to be stressful, and they almost have to be, because they force us to calculate, and to fear miscalculating. The self-interested part of our brain goes into overdrive at such moments, and that’s to some extent inevitable. But what is truly permanent in our lives and in the long history of this church is this Christ Jesus, who did not calculate for himself. Come what may of this hour, he will remain as our true past, as well as being the future into which we are called. Let us serve him, so that where he is, we will be also; and so let us be lifted up with him, in this and every anxious moment of decision and responsibility.